Thursday, July 9, 2009

A Little Pitty Pot

Sometimes I feel so alone. Basically I am. Outside of my online friends there is no one around me except my work associates. That blows. I talk on the phone to my friends but most a far away. My life is a merry-go-round of work and home. The dog and cat and my computer. I would most likely go crazy if it werent for the computer.

Today I am depressed about all this. My best friend who I have known for years stopped by last night on her way home from the airport. She spent the night and we had a great time. With Tina there is nothing special you have to do when she comes. We lay around and chat, most of the time I get the only back rub I ever get and she does too. We are just so comfortable around each other no matter how long it has been since we have seen each other. I havent seen Tina since last year before Thanksgiving. We had a great time and she left to go on home today. I didnt want her to leave and it made me very sad when she did.

Seeing her and having her around caused me to realize that I am really missing out on a lot of life by not having anyone in my life. No one. I havent seen the babies in forever. I havent seen my Mother in 3 months. Forget about friendships and relationships - that isnt even something I consider anymore. It is just depressing. Totally.

I dont think I realized until right at this moment that I am lonely and depressed. I have been too busy to think about it.

But I am.

4 comments:

Linda said...

Oh Lynn, I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. Aren't there any people at work that are "interesting"? That's the best place to meet new friends...I know that you are very busy with both jobs, hopefully when you are down to just the one, you will have time for some fun.
Why haven't you seen the kids in so long? Is something up, there?

Take care, and remember that things always have a way of getting better.
Hugs!

Lynnbug said...

I havent seen the kids because I work 7 days a week. There is no time. When I am off (which is rare) there is stuff to do around the house like wash clothes and rest. I never get any rest anymore.

Mrs4444 said...

What are you planning to do about it? If you worked too much to make friends, then maybe you shouldn't work so much; what is it going to be worth in the end? Also, a lot of people's only friends are people they work with. If you don't have friends at work, you either need to take Linda's advice or find a different job.

Hide.. Literally! said...

Hang in there baby.. The grass is always greener on the other side. And until you get there as my mom would say when I'm on the pitty pot, I hope your pot has a padded seat.. MUAH! I love you!