I have talked and talked about my weight gain. I still have not done anything about it. I weigh 220lb. right now. This is the most I have weighed in 10 years. I am totally upset and depressed about it.
I have went over all the things that have changed with myself to cause this much weight gain. At least 10lbs of this came after I got on insulin. The biggest change I can think of is I am on so much medication for my diabetes and the high blood pressure. Every medication the doctor give me says "may cause weight gain." Yep--that translates to you will become as large as a house. I am not as active as I used to be either. Probably because I get so tired from carrying around all the weight. I get out of breath brushing my fucking hair these days.
I joined Fitday.com thinking that would help. Not so much. Just another website to go to and it bores me. If they had a message board over there so I could talk to other fat people it would help. I like the online interaction with people. It just seems to help if I have the support. I have thought about looking for another diet site and maybe I will. The key is they have to be FREE. I dont have any extra cash to pay. If anyone knows of a site that has what I am talking about please let me know.
I am just not motivated. I was crying yesterday about my weight and I still ate right at an entire cantaloupe just a minute ago. Maybe I should just stay fat. But that would require new clothes and I cant bring myself to go into the store and start buying 2x clothing. I just want to shoot myself in the head.
Or stab myself in the eye.