Life is short. It should be lived to its fullest. People should be able to be happy no matter what circumstances they find themselves in. Counting your blessing, focusing on the positive and working towards building your life into something productive and being all you can be seems to be the key to happiness.
Many times I have fallen short of that ideal. I have often found my happiness to be the result of other people. The result of what is going on in their life, their pain and their accomplishments. That kind of thinking does not work. I need to find my own happiness. It is hard when you see someone you love hurting.
I get depressed when the people I love are hurting and I cant do anything to help them. I feel like I am letting them down in some way. I am sad today because a family member is hurting and their life is not all they planned it to be. All I have ever wanted for them is happiness and a fullfilling family life. When they hurt, I hurt.
I wish I could make everything okay. The frustration of not being able to do so is overwhelming and depressing. So today, I am sad, depressed and very fearful of what tomorrow will bring.