It doesnt seem like a year since you died. We ask ourselves why a lot and we wonder what and why this happened. We wonder if we could have done more to help you. We arent mad, we are just sad that you were not able to hang on any longer. It is really hard to think about this being forever.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
It's been one year since you left. Time doesnt make me miss you any less. I can only remember the happiness you gave me when you were growing up. You were a special person, so much life in you and so much love to give everyone around you. I can still hear your voice and your laughter. I can remember how it felt to hug your neck. I remember that you hated pot roast. But you loved green beans! I was honored to be able to help raise you. You went through so much growing up and you still kept that positive attitude and you excelled at everything you did. Your Dad and I were so proud of you. I talked to your Dad today. He still misses you to. Last week a lady in AA asked if he would speak at a meeting this week. When he found out it was tomorrow, he felt like it would be especially comforting that he would be speaking at meeting on the anniversary of your death. It gave him some peace. Funny how God is taking care of him by allowing him to do what he loves to do. Possibly help another suffering alcoholic. You will be in his thoughts and his heart the entire time. He really loved you a lot.